Ive neglected this of recent. mainly because ive been trying to get back into the swing of things after being away. Europe was well, EUROPE. an amazingly insightful, liberating experience that i tryed so hard to not take for granted. it wasnt until i came back that the whole thing really sunk in. traveling is no-where near like living a institutionalized life, its how life should be led. all things bigger than where to eat and what to see become redundant. i dont think ive ever felt as alive as i did for that month in my life and i encourage anyone who hasnt already done it to do so now. you only life once, its as simple as that. Personally that whole trip calmed me in the respect of my ever-changing direction and fear of people. deal with it and fuck forever (a quote deriving mainly solitude, but to me comfort).
So then i came back and my point being proven i had shit to deal with. i have no money, no job and a two month wait until my life continued again. in all reality, summer sucks. im stuck here in my room feeling like im 14 again, nothing to keep me company apart from porn and music. oh to be a consumer. when you come from living a scorn-able lifestyle that my parents have no consent toward to the clinical censored environment of my parents. being yourself becomes a task. i now just day dream. smile at the thought of getting fucked and puking into my hand, eating nothing but cereal,living in my own filth. i wouldn't have it any other way. i'm not gunna dismiss this summer totally though. ofcourse ive LOVED being with the homeboys catching up and causing mischief, but i cant help but think we've all out grown medway and the longer we stay the shitter we're start feeling about life.
So as im sure you can guess by now im totally ready to go back to wycombe. keeping myself entertain for the last 2 months has been a task and im not prepared to do it for anylonger than 2 more weeks. i wanna work not aimlessly roam the internet or motivating myself to do nothing for a day. i think this week ive achieved 5 insignificant things:
1. i completed my 3rd bootfair and found these for 50p
2. i discovered bear hands and a bunch of others.
3.Vice is my god, follow them.>>>>http://twitter.com/Vicemag
4. i look bitchin in a bumbag
5.i have a man crush on tomburge
so hopefully now i might make my daily aim this blog. tell you what's good and not and then you can ignore my opinon and kick me (i would im a dick).
ok see you tomorrow
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